Happy. Finally.

Lost a friend. Gained self respect. :)

You don't know how happy I am. I was lost, and now I'm found. Did see, but now believe. I believe that I don't need you to tell me that. I am finally happy. You don't get it, don't beg. I gave you many chances, and now, it's too late. Before you cry, remember me. Remember me on the phone. Remember me smiling, laughing. Remember the real me. And me will be there now, forever and always. This is my chance to live my life. To discover the truth in life. In me. Now I am happy. Don't ruin it.

I know you may blame me, and go back to school smiling like nothing happened. But that's all fake. Deep inside you will be crying. And now, inside I am smiling. It's not going to be the same on Monday. I'm not going to wake up to a neverending cycle of what you want my life to be. I am going to wake up and see the bright sun glimmering in the sky above, and the light of the Earth in my soul.

I told you what I am. I don't need to see a bleak future any longer. I will live and see the light, the chorus of angels sweeping me off my feet, the smile creeping up on my face. The love echoing from my voice, and the sweet taste of myself. I will see happiness. I will live it. I will survive.

You may not understand what I am saying, but I shall say it with glee. You are not who you used to be. You are not my true friend. No, you are not an enemy. Hatred is evil and bad for you as well as your soul and mind. Instead, we shall remember eachother as the person who you used to be, and the person I am.

I told you everything. My secrets, my dreams, my loves. If you were a good friend, you would not tell anything, as of I will keep your secrets to myself. I am a person. A human being. And I am not who anyone else is, I am trustworthy. But are you, is the question I must ask.

This is not a joke. A lie, a humoring prank. This is the truth. I love being ME, the fun-loving, real live girl, I chose to be. Do not laugh at my choices. Do not cry. Maybe they will turn on me, yes, but may they turn on me with dignity, not dispair.

I shall miss YOU. The real you. And someday we may reunite, and be true friends. Sadly, now is not that day.

~Cecelia (Middle & Last Name here)

Happy. Finally.